To love a place is not enough. We must find ways to heal it.”
– Robin Wall Kimmerer
The early spring weeds reached my shoulders, hiding the contours of the land beneath a tangle of faded chaos. At first, apprehension–so much to uncover, so many possibilities buried under years of neglect.
I pulled on my gloves and started to mark maths, tracing lines with yellow spray paint where a garden might flow, where the studio entry might be, where movement could feel natural, where fruit trees and vegetables could each have their own place. Each line felt like drawing a treasure map, one that only I could read at first, one that would eventually invite more ideas and possibilities.
Maps have always been my way of understanding a place–my great aunt carried the world in her hands, traveling, swimming, reading, scrabble boards stacked in neat piles. I once constructed a tiny suitcase and made a hard-to-fold map I’d embossed, a folded world inside, pockets filled with sketches, notes, the smallest black velveteen drawstring bag stuffed full with pennies.
Here, on this land, I map again. But this time it’s alive: paths grow, walls are moved, the garden blooms. Every pulled weed, every measured step along a proposed path, becomes a note in a journal I carry, cross out, layer a new idea.
The land knows its own possibilities, and I follow, notebook in hand—or hoe, or shovel—charting a deliberate story of arrival.
One page ends. The next may be tucked into a crack in the clay soil.

from the studio notebook